Clueless again

Assalamualaikum

again....I'm clueless...
Fahim such a 'super excellent' boy
really made his 'ibu' crazy..

but am sure...behind all things happened...
there are 'hidayah' which I dun know what it is now...

yesterday...i met his rehab doctor again..
to get his advise on how we can move on for Fahim's further development...
he has ok'ied our 'proposal' but when we're meeting his Speech Therapist
the Therapist 'rejected' our proposal..

she advised us to really 'work very very very' hard this year...
working together....so that we can make sure Fahim's go to what he is belong...
the 'proposal' submitted was not actually suit Fahim's conditions...
and it will worsen his ability and skills to enhance further...
she positive towards Fahim..me too....(but not his father..confused je selalu)

am a little bit 'positive' after meeting her..
because at the beginning, i can't accept any advise made by the others (including his father..grrrr)
at one time..i cried and cried..not because of Fahim but because of 'hearing' to much excuses made by the school operator...he is not autisme, he is not down syndrom...
he is just delayed in his development...
must be something we need to correct it now....
it's so hard last year and beginning this year..
we're jumping here and there just to get better advise....(cost $$$ ok..and not only $$$ but much much $$$)
and what we've done is actually NOT WORTH IT..
they're not really understand WHAT I WANT...and FAHIM'S NEED...(eventho they read the report)
oh...why I'm not meeting his therapist earlier....(ibu super dumb dumb!! my mistakes)

FIRST THING FIRST
1.  Need to go for hearing test (to make sure the delay in speech is not because of his hearing problem)
2.  To meet the Psycologist again (to test him again)
3.  To attend extra therapies sessions (thank to Allah and my company because covers all this)
4.  Ibu need to GIVE EXTRA CLASSES every day at leat 30 minutes a day!! (fuhh....bertabahlah ibu)

Doakan saya ye kawan-kawan!!

CONCLUSION:  May I take unpaid leave, please?
(I really need to work super hardest .... Ya Allah..please help us...tunjukkan kami Ya Allah)

**feeling down**

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